The most frustrating thing in life to me is frustration. My awareness that my peace is being disturbed is equally as frustrating as the circumstance or situation that is affecting me at the time.
My secret issue in life is I have a large family and I never buy enough bathroom tissue. My cycle of crazy with bathroom tissue is because I hate buying more than I need and I think someone in my house has a secret business that requires the use of lots of bathroom tissue, but that’s a story for another day.
Anyway, my loving daughter advised me right before bed that we needed more tissue since it was late so I decided to wait until the morning. So the next morning as I walked towards the door I smelled a funny odor coming from the kitchen because the refrigerator wasn’t cooling as normal. Ok, that wasn’t expected, but I didn’t have to fret. I have emergency money, thanks to Dave Ramsey, for times like this. The bright side, I had a few hours before work and I could get the tissue and price out a new refrigerator before the old one completely broke.
I opened the door to find an inch and a half of ice that covered the entire driveway. Still not fretting, there has to be ice melt in the garage. Thanks to the grass and weird things I used to prevent myself from falling I found the ice melt and used it to make a path to the car and laid some down the driveway. It was still very early and no one was up, so my no-tissue in the house had not yet become a catastrophe. The car slowly starts to slip backward into the road and I try everything to control it to no avail so I say a small prayer and open the door to jump out, but it stops.
In my conquering back up the driveway. It dawned on me that I would have to give my newly licensed daughter a ride to work because of the road conditions. I tried to ignore the smell as I checked her schedule on the refrigerator calendar. Our schedules conflicted and meant she would have to wait at work and hour and a half. I felt my peace slipping away and my frustration with frustration reared its ugly head. Then I remembered something I read in Cindy Trimm’s book, sometimes you don’t need to fix the situation, you just have to ask God for light.
I said “let there be light” and headed to the shower. In the bathroom, it dawned on me that I had not asked for divine help in this situation. I raised up my hand and said a quick prayer with faith that help would come. Within the 30 minutes I found a roll of tissue that escaped my tissue-thief, my daughter informed me that I was looking at the wrong date on the calendar and she need to be at work an hour before me, and although the refrigerator was not cooling as usual but the smell was coming from a bag of chicken clearly needed to be discarded and I overreacted, the ice was thawing and would thaw completely by the time I had to leave for work. I came home from work to find two refrigerators. My husband and friend discovered a part needed to be replaced in the fridge and surprised me with a clean but hideous temporary refrigerator until the part came in. “Lord, let there be more light for patience and tolerance of ugly refrigerators”.
Anyway moral of the story. As I reflected at the end of the day I felt like the huge elephant who was trained to be tied up to a little tree because he had been that way for a long time. I too had something tied to my ankle: not knowing when to ask for divine help. Everyone’s little chain may be different, it has no real power except that it has always been there. It could be fear of the future, trying to please others, thinking too little of yourself, not seeing ourselves as God sees us, not praying daily, or not trusting God to fulfill his word. Sometimes the situations are more extreme than a “bad” morning or an ugly fridge. It would be the loss of a loved one, financial crisis, marriage crisis, illness, illness of a loved one, debilitating pressure from work, or just hopelessness in general. The solution is always the same asking for awareness and releasing the situation to our Lord and savior Jesus Christ.
“The Lord himself will fight for you. Just stay calm” Exodus 14:14 NLT